May 22, 2012
8:40pm
I couldn’t help myself. I just DM her. Waaaaah. I don’t know. Really. Stupid me. Geez. I know what she’s reply would be. “WHAT?” is the reply. And she will be angry. Mad. She will hate me. T.T
Even though she already did all of the signs that a girl will do if she doesn’t like the guy, I’m still here. Hoping.
Haha. =))
I think after this i should get away from the net. Wait till the time comes that i’ve got over her. And if she miss me, i hope she will find a way to get in touch with before it happens.
night.
I’m seeing your face everywhere. I’m going insane.
“Ang sabi ko hindi kita mamimiss hanggang kailan ito matitiis.”
-Halik by Kamikazee
May 20, 2012
9.23pm
I DM-ed her. She tweeted but i got no reply. I’m really such a fool. Hoping. Dreaming. Haha. I keeping telling myself that i got no chance. But still hoping and dreaming maybe the world will change. Hahaha. Really. Fool. How many times did i already said that. I wish i don’t feel anything.
Feeling left alone. Being ignored by someone special to you. Feeling like nobody cares for you. You have no one else to rely on. Woke up in a nightmare. What worse can it get?
But, i still believe that there’s more to life. I just hope someone will reach a hand to me. Someone who’ll understand, be there in times of laugh or in pain, in times when you feel like you’re gonna burst in tears. I wish i had that.
Frustating night.
10:02pm
May 19, 2012
I want to talk to her.
I want to hear her voice.
I want to be with her.
I want to see her.
I want to see her smile.
I want to hear her laugh.
I can go to her. But my insecurities holding me back not to.
She’s beautiful. I’m not handsome.
She’s in U.P. I’m a failed Isko.
I think she’s rich. I’m not poor. But not rich. You’re average guy i think.
She has a nice, complete family. Me? Nevermind.
Hahaha. :)) well, nevermind. It’s just came out of my mind while i’m thinking about her just a while ago.
Wooo. That’s life.
Maybe sleep will blow that away from my mind. :D
Night.
9:38pm
May 18,2012
If i’m given a chance to spend time with her, these are the things i want to do:
-stargazing at the beach
-watch a movie
-bike
-mountainhike
-Enchanted Kingdom (or any Carnival)
Hahaha. =)) but i did all of that with her, in my dreams. :))
anyway, i’ll have another date with her. gotta go. gotta sleep. =))
Night. :)
8:53pm
May 17,2012
Here i am, thinking about her. The only thing i can do. Hahahaha. It’s been two days since i last tweet. Does she miss me? LOL. As if.
I’m only active here on tumblr and i don’t think she will spare a time to visit my blog. =))
I read her notes in fb. And sadness cover-up my self. I don’t know why did she feels like that. I wonder if she had a misunderstanding with him.
I think i’ll just reach out to her when it comes to the point of knowing that she’s crying. But now, I know she can still manage. She’s strong-willed woman. I think. :)
That’s the job of the Moon. Giving light in times of darkness while her sun is away. :D
I hope Clippers will win tomorrow. :P
Night.
12.31am.
It’s been 24 hours since I DMed her a “Good Night.” and there’s no reply since then. I want to think that she’s busy and didn’t have time to reply but she’s tweeting. Well, that’ll clear things out.
Hahaha. :)) my Clippers lost today. Not a good day.
While reading her tweets make me feel bitter sweet. :)) i really envy that lucky guy. =)) my eyes are already heavy and so my chest. And now all i can do is smile. :] to ease myself a bit. haha. Pathetic. For real.
I don’t know what to do. Hahaha.
K. Night.
11.30pm.
Still waiting a tweet from her. Even though it’s not for me I still want to read her tweets. I don’t know why.
She’s been tweeting less lately. Busy maybe?
My eyes already want to close but still..
I wonder if she’s alright. I felt sadness from her tweets and blogs lately. I want to reach out but I don’t know how to comfort people and I’m afraid that I might make it worse.
I hope she’s okay.
Hopelessness is starting to eat this feelings for her. I’m slowly accepting the reality. Thoughts that are saying “I’m not good enough for her.”.
That’s why starting now, i will be a better person. I’ll be serious with my life. I will straighten my path and start moving forward. I’ll make sure that i will have a brighter future. Someone that’ll be fitting for your standards. I’m all fired up. :D I’m doing this for her. :) maybe, in future, we’re really fated. At least at that time i already met her standards. If we’re not, then i’m fated to be forever alone. =))
But for now, we’ll just take different paths. Paths that’ll probably cross again. :)
For the rest that i want to say it’s on the song Promise the Stars by We The Kings. :D
Just a sign. A DM conversation initiated by her.
Good Night.
I think i am starting to get used to this feeling. :) and i’m starting to ignore some things. I think i’m better than before. :) i just need to find some things that’ll get my attention. :P
Tomorrow is the game 7 of Clippers-Memphis series. I just hope Chris Paul and the rest of the Clippers will get through this one.
Anyway, i think she’s sad. All i can do now is cheer her up in the side. What the fck is that guy doing making her sad like that. I hope they settle that as soon as possible.
i am numb.
Good night.
